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A St. Patty’s Day Story

Alana —  March 17, 2014 — Leave a comment

I only loved one guy before I met my husband. He was my longest dating relationship prior to meeting Josh. And I’m proud to say the relationship lasted an entire six weeks.

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Exposing the Real Me

Alana —  January 24, 2013 — 17 Comments

The truth is, no one knew everything that was going on with me. I only told people bits and pieces – whatever I felt I could trust them with, or whatever I felt they could handle without judging me. But… no one knew everything.

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My Double Life

Alana —  January 17, 2013 — 12 Comments

When Johnny broke up with me and never talked to me again, I was devastated. The hardest part was experiencing his rejection and having no closure (that I could actually remember). I continued to drink, but for a brief time calmed down my lifestyle. This was March and fast approaching in May would be a trip I had planned to Seattle. I would be visiting my younger sister who was involved in a discipleship program.



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Alana_2004I remember having a conversation with my Mom during my “party” phase. Somehow, (maybe because of her superpower MomSense), she knew I was drinking and seemed concerned that it was/would get out of hand. I was a little shocked that she knew, but I completely downplayed it, “Oh Mom, yeah I drink, but I only drink a little.” Looking back, I am thankful she approached me to have this conversation, rather than ignore it. At the time I thought, “Geez woman. You’re crampin’ my style!” Okay, I didn’t really think that because that sounds like we were living in the early 90’s and this was 2004. Continue Reading…

My Friend Chase

Alana —  November 27, 2012 — 4 Comments

Last Tuesday I shared how my accidental intoxication turned me into a bar-hopping-stage-dancing-alcohol-drinker. If you missed it, check it out here.

Of course, being a student and working part-time, I could not maintain this lifestyle of going to the bar five nights a week. Well, physically, I was maintaining it fine. 😉 It was the finances that began to unravel. Continue Reading…

The Bouncers Knew Me By Name

Alana —  November 20, 2012 — 11 Comments

Once I realized how alcohol could boost my confidence, [backstory here] it quickly became part of my weekly regimen. From 2002 – 2004, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday nights = bar night. Despite this, I somehow managed to maintain a 3.0 – 4.0 throughout college. I did get a 1.0 in one of my classes and that was directly tied to my new-found social life. Continue Reading…

Intoxicated Me

Alana —  November 15, 2012 — 5 Comments

The first time I became drunk, I was 22 years old. I had moved from my hometown in Lansing, MI to Grand Rapids to go to college. Growing up, I was taught that drinking was bad. Or at least, “Don’t drink until you turn 21 and it is legal.” To my knowledge, my parents never had alcohol in the house, so I wasn’t really exposed to it. In high school, I had friends who partied and drank at a young age, but I was too naive to realize it then. I maintained a strong conviction that I was not going to drink until I was of legal age. On my 21st birthday, I was on a mission trip in another country, so that pretty much nixed that opportunity. Continue Reading…

Note from Alana: Abbie is a dear friend of mine. I have known her my entire life – our parents have been friends since before Abbie and I joined this world. I am blessed and honored to be able to share part of Abbie’s story here. I love you, lady!

Sexuality Redeemed
shared by Abigail Livingston

I grew up in what I’d call a “Christian Bubble”. My parents loved (and still love) Jesus, and they tended to raise my siblings and I on the overprotective side (their intent was out of their love for us). But this created in me a level of ignorance about how the world was in real life. Part of that ignorance was about how to have or pursue healthy relationships with boys. I was taught that “true love waits”, meaning that I should not have sex until I get married. There was not much else shared about romantic relationships as I was growing up even in church-and I was definitely not allowed to date. Continue Reading…

Vodka on the Rocks, Please!

Alana —  September 13, 2012 — Leave a comment

Okay, so Vodka on the Rocks is not my alcoholic beverage of choice, but I do enjoy a good Captain n’ Diet or a nice glass o’ wine. Anyway, after a rough day at work, some days all I can think of is how badly I want to go home and drown my frustrations in libations. I want to numb the anger and pain and avoid dealing with the discomfort of whatever happened that day. Continue Reading…