Why I Run From Conflict

Alana —  February 5, 2013 — 11 Comments
Fighting Fingers

Fighting Fingers

“Can I talk to you?”

Ugh. I could tell by his quiet demeanor at dinner that he had been stewing on something. Usually the “Can I talk to you?” question is the beginning to our hard, long, awkward conversations.

“Yeah… ”

“I’m really bothered by…”

Then it came. The flood of his frustration. This time, it wasn’t directed at me, but it still involved me because I had not stepped up and fought for myself. He was frustrated because of how I was being treated in another relationship. I deserved better. I could feel my throat closing up and I just stared straight ahead. I didn’t want to deal with this. Not with him and not with the other person either. Can’t you just let me be?
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Hi, Mom and Dad. I Lied to You.

Alana —  January 31, 2013 — 11 Comments

During that flight home to Michigan, part of me hoped the plane would crash. I had committed to return home and confess ALL to my parents. I suppose I could have chickened out and not done it, but by that point there were people back in Seattle who knew I planned to talk with my parents. Just their knowledge of my plan was accountability enough.

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Brad Nelson

Brad Nelson

Almost a year ago, my wife texted me shortly after 10am on a Monday morning to say that our 1 year old had decided that crawling was no longer a decent means of making her way through the world. In an instant she decided to walk, and there has been no turning back.

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Exposing the Real Me

Alana —  January 24, 2013 — 17 Comments

The truth is, no one knew everything that was going on with me. I only told people bits and pieces – whatever I felt I could trust them with, or whatever I felt they could handle without judging me. But… no one knew everything.

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When I started this journey four years ago, I was in a place where I had barely begun to believe I was worth the effort it took to pursue whole healing. I knew enough in my head to know I was worth it and knew that at the very least I had to act on that until my heart began to believe too.

Kim - Before and Now

Kim – Before and Now

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My Double Life

Alana —  January 17, 2013 — 12 Comments

When Johnny broke up with me and never talked to me again, I was devastated. The hardest part was experiencing his rejection and having no closure (that I could actually remember). I continued to drink, but for a brief time calmed down my lifestyle. This was March and fast approaching in May would be a trip I had planned to Seattle. I would be visiting my younger sister who was involved in a discipleship program.

Sisters

Sisters

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Trickle Down Effect

Carissa Woodwyk —  January 15, 2013 — 1 Comment

Eyes, nose, hair, body, personality…they all get passed down through the gene pool. There’s so much of “them” in “us.”

The Woodwyk Family

The Woodwyk Family

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Alana_2004I remember having a conversation with my Mom during my “party” phase. Somehow, (maybe because of her superpower MomSense), she knew I was drinking and seemed concerned that it was/would get out of hand. I was a little shocked that she knew, but I completely downplayed it, “Oh Mom, yeah I drink, but I only drink a little.” Looking back, I am thankful she approached me to have this conversation, rather than ignore it. At the time I thought, “Geez woman. You’re crampin’ my style!” Okay, I didn’t really think that because that sounds like we were living in the early 90’s and this was 2004. Continue Reading…

Blessings by the Dozen

Brenda Mailand —  January 8, 2013 — 5 Comments

It might have started after I read Cheaper by the Dozen
or maybe it was the result of living across the street from a family with eleven children… whatever it was that ignited the idea, I knew I wanted 12 children, and told my almost-fiance (now-husband, Lennie) that exact number when we had “THE TALK”.

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The Mailand Family

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2012: The Best Year of My Life

Alana —  January 3, 2013 — 10 Comments

It’s the New Year and a lot of people will be taking the next few weeks to set their New Year’s resolutions. I used to think this was stupid, because people (myself included) start out the year with high hopes and dreams of the weight we are going to lose, the debt we’ll pay off, the great new job we’ll get, then… by Feb 1st, it all comes to a halt and we go back to our normal way of life because, let’s face it, it’s just easier that way.

In 2012, I tried something new. In lieu of setting specific goals, I set a theme for my entire year. 2012 became the year of Facing My Fears. I really didn’t know what to expect, except that if I stayed true to my theme, there may be some moments in the course of the following 12 months where I may poop my pants from the rush of adrenaline.

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